At the beginning of June, the Lord spoke to my heart and directed me to be off all social media. The divisiveness, the hate, and the total chaos was taking a toll on my heart. Every time I logged on to social media I’d feel angry, frustrated, irritated, and it started to affect my spirit and my relationship with God. My love walk was slowing being filled with stumbling blocks and I knew that I was veering off into a path I didn’t want to be on. So I heeded His word and delve into Him and only Him.
“Who can understand his errors? Cleanse me from secret faults.” Psalms 19:12 NKJV
It was during this time that I went through a process of being filtered to become unfiltered. To put it simply, Abba revealed many things in me that I didn’t know/think were there. The anger, frustration, irritation were things hidden in me and were being brought to the surface. I’ve come to understand that how I respond or feel is a result of what is already in me. No one or no thing can bring something out of me if it wasn’t in there to begin with. Isn’t that a big revelation? The biggest one though, was fear of men. Something I thought I was free from, to an extent I was, but not completely. I allowed the opinions of others to influence my faith…..online.
“Teach me, and I will hold my tongue: and cause me to understand wherein I have erred.” Job 6:24 NKJV
When I finally stopped justifying and started listening to Abba I realized, He was absolutely right. I recalled how I filtered my faith many times by sweetening up posts to be more likeable, holding back when I shouldn’t have and taming my faith to look more dignified than radical. I was deceiving myself when I thought I was being transparent. I was compromising to an audience of many when I should have been yielding to an audience of One.
Pride may be a hard pill to swallow, but it’s better than choking on it.
This filtering process was quite painful yet healing at the same time. We never go into a fire and expect to walk out the same. God had to purify my heart in order for my faith to be radical again. It’s made me ready for this new season. And as I write this, I realize that this new season also coincides with my last year in my 30s and I’m ready for it.
So I invite you to enjoy me as I transition from Moments in the Garden to Unfiltered Faith. Unfiltered, uncensored, unapologetic, unashamed, unbecoming me to become wholly His.
“Create a new, clean heart within me. Fill me with pure thoughts and holy desires, ready to please you.”
Psalms 51:10 TPT